I'm Feeling Guilty

 It's been years...

Alhamdulillah, thanks to Allah SWT. I am married, and I'm now a mother of a beautiful daughter, Nabila Azzahra. Alhamdulillah.

There's a lot of things I want to share, yet this time I just want to express my feeling, yeah I'm feeling guilty about letting my daughter fell down from her stroller. 😭

Someday when I read this I'll remember, I need someone to share my worries, and I'll finally realize I share it to myself. 😢

This will make me aware more, I hope. 😢

Today, Nabila fell down from her stroller. Of course it happened accidentally, yet I'm really sorry and I'm really feeling guilty. I cried when she cried, I hugged her tightly and tried to calm her down yet I couldn't make my self calm down.

After a while, she stopped crying and started to smile, yet I couldn't stop blaming my self.

Dear daughter, I love you so much that I worry that much. 😭 I'm sorry..

I didn't see any bruises on her, but I'm still worrying that much.

She played, smiled, and laughed as usual but these couldn't make me feel fine. 😭

I'm really sorry, Dear. 😭

Now, she is sleeping and I'm looking at her, how grateful I am to have her in my life, how Allah loves me that much by sending her in my life.

I promise I'll be more careful. I'll take care of you well, Bila..

I love you, I always pray you'll always be better than your mom.

Stay healthy, and happy, My Love.. ❤️